Do ya'll ever get weird unreal and undoubtably unfounded stabs of guilt while living your JW free - but beatiful and honest lives? I feel ike it bites me in the ass at the weirdest and most unexpected times....J"know?
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Wed, April 30, 2008 - 5:32 PMI find that the no-blood thing is the big one for me. Probably because I nearly died as a teenager due to refusing blood...it's a big emotional thing...when you at one point are willingto die for something you believe is true - it's hard to let go of that particular "ology" later.
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Wed, April 30, 2008 - 6:29 PM> when you at one point are willingto die for something you believe
> is true - it's hard to let go of that particular "ology" later.
ive found that picking my scabs and licking the blood off on a fairly regular basis does a good job of deadening that reflex.
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Re: So yeah it's been 8 years JW free but...
Wed, April 30, 2008 - 6:32 PM> Do ya'll ever get weird unreal and undoubtably unfounded stabs of
> guilt while living your JW free - but beatiful and honest lives? I feel
> ike it bites me in the ass at the weirdest and most unexpected
> times....J"know?
i still have dreams where im still a witness... they're getting rarer all the time though. i usually have them after i get called on at home, i can never just say "im not interested" and leave it at that, ive just got to engage them in a philosophical discussion. that ALWAYS drags my bay. -
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Wed, April 30, 2008 - 7:01 PMI can't engage JWs on a philosophical level, I get way to pissed off....
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Thu, June 12, 2008 - 10:35 AM"i still have dreams where im still a witness... they're getting rarer all the time though"
I recenly had one - first in a loooong time. I dreamt I was at a convention and two of the people I'd dated after leaving the org showed up and in my dream I was trying to keep "our" relationship from being discovered. So, I guess that latent fear of being DF'ed is still working through my subconscious. So strange that it came up out of the blue after all this time. -
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Fri, June 13, 2008 - 7:05 AMTravis and I both, still have dreams about being a witness, and usually we dream about being at a convention. Weird. -
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Thu, June 19, 2008 - 7:49 AMI haven't dreamed about being a witness in a long time and I had one last night. I was with a friend and we were trying to find seats in the packed Kingdom Hall. I remember people were staring at me but it wasn't clear if I was disfellowshippped or not. I was very upset because I forgot my Bible and song book.
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Tue, May 6, 2008 - 3:06 PMYes. I call it survivors guilt... -
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Tue, June 10, 2008 - 11:13 PMLOL at Thomas. Thats funny :)
I dont have any guilt.
Anger...different issue.
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Re: So yeah it's been 8 years JW free but...
Thu, June 12, 2008 - 2:59 PMI still have guilt as well and it's been ten years...one would be, I can't watch porn.
