hey hey...

i still look to see if there is new posts now and then... but i'm pregnant and my mind works in a different way now... i dont really think about the past as much, i think that since i joined this tribe i've done a lot of healing.... being able to share with people who get it has been amazing for me, and reading all of your stories....

and now i'm focusing my thoughts on the way society is and what i can do about it. i live in a very different world, i live in the sticks where there are more healthy hippie roots type people than not.... where its normal to give birth at home and smoke a bit of herb when you're pregnant... grow most of your own veggies and some herb

i am seeing that i live in a bubble... not that i am unaware of what happens in the world.... but i am safe here....

i want to make the whole earth a part (though i understand there will be variations of the 'good life') of my pagan, non commercial holiday celebrating, healthy lifestyle, open minded, no cable tv, home school your children kind of community...
i am seeing, in a new way, that the world outside my bubble is needing help and i dont know how to make people see that it is easy to just love.

i want to save the world before this child is born.., i want it to be a better place for him/her to grow up.
i want people to share.
no one should be hungry.
no one school be rich.

microwaves? fast food? oil? war? unnatural body care products? petrol based 'vasaline'? disposable daipers? babies with no momma to love them... but a system that makes it too expensive to adopt? vaccines that do damage? baby jumpers, cribs, pacifiers, playpens, tv, video games, plastic toys.... hun? so unnecessary!! the 'i want' mentality... the 'i need' mentality. the materialistic consumer lifestyle... i am so separate from it... and everyone i know is too... to different degrees of course... and i sometimes forget that walmart is out there...

i think a lot...

it makes me see that all this waiting for jesus stuff is an easy way out... 'he'll come back and fix everything!'
i dont think that gonna happen.
WE are here. its up to us. but what can we do if we continue to be in divide ??
i wish the whole earth could be healed. we have to stop our wanting, our consuming if this is going to happen.

thats my rant.

www.storyofstuff.com
^that is a 20 min video, worth your time...

'Zeitgeist' documentary, as ex jws you all will be really interested in this one... you can try to rent it... some places in the states wont carry it in their stores, if you can not find it, go to zeitgeistmovie.com/ you can watch it there or go to the google movie

sorry for my rant. every time this child moves even a little i am more and more passionate in my desire to save the world...

I am here and still on my journey of healing... I have been writing a draft of a letter I want to send to my parents.

Some of us have Facebooks so we communicate that way. ... it would have been Tracker's birthday today. R.I.P friend.